Friday, September 24, 2010

once I see you from a far, you standing there.

times fly away. you still there and my ride goes fast.

now I see you still there. I'm not refused to go forward but I just love seeing you there, not too close, not too far.
and there's a light. light that makes you clear, makes me clearly see you.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Teenage Angst

oh, adolescene

being a teenage girl is close to one of the worst things ever.

i have a high sex drive, my emotions run wild at all times, im constantly self conscious, hungry, bored, fucked up and all around a mess.

you know?


i miss everyone in my life. i miss my friends so much but i can't go out and hanging out with'em because they're already have their own bussiness. i miss my free-hug bear, i miss him so bad. i can't meet him so i'm grumble, say and do stupid, inappropriate things and i hate the fact that i did that, fact that i can't do nothing. about the condition and surely about my self.
things slap my face hard and make me realize that i did wrong. i realize again, i ain't even a teenager anymore! so whats so wrong about me? its almost 3 years, na-ah i think i've been like this, like, forever.
i know i have a problem in managing my anger. i know i always blame my hormone. fvcking hormone! i know i am unstable. labile as fvck. but i'm willing to change! promise you i will, as long as you stay. so, please stay.